Disappointment

This is not a fun word to be. No one wants to be a disappointment. I recently had the joy of disappointing someone. Not fun. Tears were shed. One of my biggest fears is to be a disappointment to people. I hate letting people down, and I usually strive to go the extra mile. Sometimes though, I fail spectacularly at this. Sometimes I get so tired and lazy that the second mile just doesn't seem worth it and the first one doesn't really matter all that much anyway... This is a bad place to be. So I let someone down because I just didn't care at that point. Of course, now I care a lot and wish I could go back and kick myself and say, "CARE!" but I cannot. So now's my time to learn from what I just did. I did a little poking around on google and I found this. They Did Not Give Up. Check it out. It's a bunch of stories of famous people who had to go through a lot of disappointments and seeming failures before they got to where they were going. So I'll let you learn from them. But never fear failure, because if you do it right, it only gets you closer to the prize. As Confucius said, "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Honored

Life is hard. Life is fun. Life is short. Life is here. Life is now. Life is a gift. All these things are true, and I just wanted to stop and take a moment to really thank God for the gift of life that He gave each and every one of us. Many times we thank God for some of the things in life, but never really for life itself, when really that is one of the biggest gifts he gave us. Often we get down and don't stop and think what a blessing it is to be allowed to live a hard life. I know it doesn't seem like an honor to be granted hardships in  your life, but it really is! For God to look at me and say, "If she leans on me during this hardship, I will help her." is quite the honor. For God to believe that I can handle these things in my life is definitely saying something. So don't get mad at God when he throws something difficult your way, thank Him for giving you your life and consider it an honor to suffer for Christ.

James 1:2-4  Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Developing My Here and Now Mentality

The other day I was thinking (shocking, I know), and I was wondering what God's plan for me could possibly be. I was thinking about how scary it is that I have almost no idea what exactly God wants me to do with my life. I can't find a job, and I feel like I'm wasting my time. But then I thought, "What can I do right now?" I remember reading somewhere (or maybe hearing?) that sometimes God gives us periods of time between doing His work to work on our relationship with Him and to prepair myself for what is to happen next. So now that I look at it, I've been given a great time to prepare for what God is about to do in my life. I don't know what it will be, but I've decided now is the time to prepare and to be following God to the very best of my ability because something big is going to happen soon and I could need something I've learned in this time to get through it. I can't wait to see what it is. So it's now, not later that I'm looking at. I need to focus on what I'm doing right now and then God will show me the next step. Can't wait! =)

Matthew 6:35
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I'm Coming Back.

OK, so it's been quite a while since I blogged, and as some of you may have noticed I have deleted a lot of my old blog postings. I want a fresh new start and so that's what I felt I should do. This is just a warning blog post to let you know I'll be more active soon in case you want to read them or in case you want to avoid them, haha. I'll try to get the first one up tonight but it might be tomorow. Just be patient, it'll come. Thanks for reading and being interested, I hope you'll be blogging too! =)